Revelations and Resolutions...

[E]: This morning I am listening to several songs-

For The Love of God - Rebecca St. James
This is Your Life - Switchfoot
We Live - Superchick
Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer

I really could not find just "one" song to help me explain the revelation I had yesterday. As all amazing revelations come, this one found me in the bathroom (but don't all revelations happen in the bathroom?). Anyways... I was doing my thing and started to think about all I had put my Dear Husband through this past year. From me just being crazy hormonal all the time, to trying to get pregnant and him complaining that is was becoming more like work then fun, etc.

Then it hit me last night! Actually I started to notice something after our day hanging out at the Irvine Spectrum. I apologized to my husband last night. Here's comes the revelation... Are you ready for it? Take a minute to prepare. OK. Ready yet? Either way, here it comes.

Last night I confessed to my husband that I had been too pushy about wanting kids. I've come to realize how much I adore our little family with just the two of us. I also feel that I have so much love, I really have wanted to share this perfect love with someone else and grow our family (hence the baby-craziness). For those who know me well, you know that I would do anything to have children. I have wanted kids since I graduated college. Back to the Spectrum. I mentioned our hang out location because I've become more alert to all of the young families that are around us at any one point in our day. Last night I apologized to my husband because even though I do still want a baby and I do not want to give up trying, I've come to this conclusion.

If those parents we saw the other day wanted to go out alone or have some adult time, they would have to find and pay for a babysitter. Unlike my dear husband and myself they can no longer just "go out" without some serious planning around or with their children. I see now that what we have as a young couple is amazing and we need to take full advantage of every minute of every day that we have together. One day in the future we will be blessed with children and on that day I will be thrilled. Until then, I want and need to do all I can to enjoy this "pre-child" time with the wonderful husband Christ has blessed me with. There are still so many things that we want to do as a couple before we have children.

So in this new 2010 year, our only resolution is to honor Christ in all we say and do as a couple and as individuals, and enjoy this time we have together before children enter the picture.

Blessings to All in this new year!